i'm tired and my head hurts.
i went to a women's study/ kickoff for our women's group at church. the leader was talking about friends. she passed out a card and told us to write down three to six of our closest friends. girlfriends who we trust and who we can tell anything. you know what i wrote? .... anyone? ...... yup that is right. NOTHING.... no one. i have no friends because i cant be open and honest and let people in. i can't allow them to see what my life is really like. not just me, but dude. how can i reveal what burdens i carry when that would involve revealing things about him. about the things that i live with and deal with. so, the point is, now i really don't want to go back to church. i don't want to open up to anyone. but you are writing it here, you say. and yes you are right. but you my friends i cannot see, i don't have to look you in the face. i don't have to see you staring at me thinking what a fool i am.
well, thanks for listening. i just needed to get it out.

All of them.  but smaller the better.... but all of them!

i love both, but i'd love to live at the ocean. well, maybe the mountains.... i don't know. i love the ocean that is by the trees... like nocal. big sur and that area i don't like beachy places as much, but i do love them. i could do half the year in yosemite and half in capistrano. that is good stuff!

I am Black/Green
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Of course!

WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother's & father's middle names)
fay edwin

NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad )
paul carl

STAR WARS NAME: (the first 2 letters of your last name, first 4 letters of your first name)
sepegg

DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color, fav animal)
green platypus

SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you live)
rose hillsboro

SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav alcoholic drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
the black rusty nail (i spit rusty nails at the bad guys and give them tetannus)

FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
pere

GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie):
bubblegum lemon snickerdoodle (that sounds more like a porn name)

ROCK STAR NAME: (current pet's name, current street name)
lady cali frances

PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
lizzy beach

thanks cheese.... this i odd.....

maybe they were the same person!

i am feeling a little(ok, a lot) discouraged this morning. as i watch our country take the world economy down in flames because greedy unethical brokers and politicians were more concerned about filling their own pockets than the well being of the country i am hit with just how bad i see things. the country is on the verge of handing over the most powerful position to a man with ties to racists and terrorists, won't be open and honest about his dealings in college and early years "in the world", and who, as far as i can tell, wants to break the backs of small business, large business and and anyone else who has made good for themselves. then i hear that yet another couple in the very small church that we go to on and off, have split. that brings the total to 7 couples in 8 years or so.

WTF????????

i am so discouraged by the state of everything. is there no hope? is there no one willing to stand up for what is true and right and honest? all we ever see is the bad the ugly the dishonest. how am i supposed to keep going when all i see is a slide into a horrible world where the fascists have moved to the left, and if i do not agree with someones "lifestyle" or opinion i'm branded as racist and homophobic. never mind that i have friends of all races and orientations who allow me to have my own opinions. is this the world we want? is thins the "change" we are looking for? what about a world where individuals put others first? what about looking out for your neighbor, without the government mandating it? why do we need to segregate schools so that those with non-conformist views will feel better? huh? this is becoming a world that hates individuality, stifles independent thought and says that i am not able to tell what is best for myself and i need the government to take care of me cause i'm too ignorant and stupid to take care of myself.

whatever....

My Buddhist name is The Monk Ever Bright. What's yours?

f you're on my friends list, I want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine... you're on my list, so I want to know you better!

Comment here and repost a blank one on your own journal.

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
02) What was your dream growing up?
03) What talent do you wish you had?
04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
05) Favorite vegetable?
06) What was the last book you read?
07) What zodiac sign are you?
08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
09) Worst Habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
11) What is your favorite sport?
12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude?
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
16) Do you have any pets?
17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
18) What was your first impression of me?
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
22) What color eyes do you have?
23) Ever been arrested?
24) Bottle or can soda?
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
27) What's your favorite place to hang out at?
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
30) Do you swear a lot?
31) Biggest pet peeve?
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
34) Favourite and least favourite food?
35) Do you believe in God?
36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?

Your results:
You are Geordi LaForge

Geordi LaForge 75% Jean-Luc Picard 65% Data 61% An Expendable Character (Redshirt) 60% Mr. Scott 55% Uhura 55% Will Riker 55% Worf 55% Leonard McCoy (Bones) 45% Deanna Troi 45% James T. Kirk (Captain) 40% Spock 40% Mr. Sulu 40% Chekov 35% Beverly Crusher 25%

You work well with others and often fix problems quickly. Your romantic relationships are often bungled.

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i was reading an article that listed the most popular websites that are visited daily. so i wanted to do my own. i have yahoo for my home page, so i have lots of feed, but i think that counts. so, i'll list mine, and you can either do your own or reply here. add links if you can. i do not know how to do that thing where you put the link in the word.... so i'm low tech. sorry.
here are mine!

1.Fox news... i trust them more than cnn to not spinn the news. http://www.foxnews.com/
2. Slashfood. love this, it's foodie heaven. yummy! http://www.slashfood.com/
3.Whedonesque gotta get my fill of all things joss so here it is.http://whedonesque.com/
4.SI Mortorsports.racing... need i say more http://sportsillustrated.cnn.com/racing/index.html
5. LOL Dogs this makes dude and me just die laughing. http://ihasahotdog.com/
6. my daily dose of cute at cute overload http://cuteoverload.com/
7. Go fug yourself. these people actually pay other people to dress them. they all need a refund. http://gofugyourself.celebuzz.com/
8. Relevant magazine.com daily dose of the spiritual nad to keep up with the podcast!
ttp://www.relevantmagazine.com/rss/index.php?func=rss
9. facebook- gotta make the lunch money
10. live journal, of course!

so, it's 2:45 amd they are pulling the cars away from in front of my house. lets go back a couple of hours. i watched michael phelps, and fell asleep to the national anthem and his cute little smile..... next thing i know there was a really loud "Boom!" and dude was running down the stairs, in his boxers.... there was a car in the street, in not the right direction, and it was smoking- literally. so i grabbed some clothes, and shoes, and went to check it out. i made dude get dressed too.... dont' need that kind of trouble now, do we? apparently a girl hit the car parked on the street in front of the other side of the duplex and pushed it up onto the driveway. it barely missed their other (borrowed) car that was there by like a few inches. but i think their van is totaled s is the girl's car. i heard she went all "cops" on them and started yelling (she was drunk i guess). her mom showed up and she went all crazy yelling at the cops.... (she she doesn't watch does she? )
so the dogs are wide awake now and my adrenaline rush is wearing off. thank god our car was ok... and no one was hurt. so now i will try to go back to bed...nighty night!

well, at least mccain gives direct answers. he may not be warm and fuzzy but i can remember what he says.

so i'm watching barak obama being intervied by rick warren on multiple news channels. he seems to be a nice guy, but he sure knows how to sidestep a direct question. his answers are a fluffy feel good warm and fuzzy, but they leave me hungry 5 minutes later. no substance.

i heard mccain is next... o yippee.....(said in flat drone)

i'm not looking forward to voting in november.

and, btw, who made rick warren a "news person"? he is pretty out there too... a match made in heaven??????? (pun intended)

i hate posting because i love seing that picture of the lotus.mmmmm....
anyhoo...


this looks good:

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check this out.

FROM CUTE OVERLOAD:

Tip: Avoid the Piranha Special
According to CNN, the hottest new spa treatment in the Washington, DC area is fish pedicures, where tiny, toothless carp nibble away all your dead skin, for the nom-nom-nominal fee of $35. According to customers, the treatment produces just a tingling sensation: "It kind of feels like your foot's asleep," says one. It's all happening at Yvonne Hair and Nails salon, where the elite meet to become a fishy treat.





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